Category: Depression

Just venting again (sigh.)

Just venting. Sigh. Sjogren's Syndrome + Hashimoto's Thyroiditis + Dysautonomia/Autonomic Nerve Damage + Bipolar Disorder II + Interstitial Cystitis + IBS / SIBO + Histamine Intolerance / possible Mast Cell Activation Syndrome + Structural body damages + who knows what else = pretty hard to bear sometimes. Acute insomnia 2 nights in a row (Bipolar … Continue reading Just venting again (sigh.) →

A tale of three pregnancies and one healing soul.

At age 18, I left my childhood church thinking there must be something wrong with me and I could not be a Christian even though I wanted to. That is a long story, and one you can read at my earlier post about my personal testimony if you are interested. At age 20 I got … Continue reading A tale of three pregnancies and one healing soul. →

Good Friday Music and Musings

As some of my friends know, I play at playing and studying piano music. I also teach piano students how to play piano and read and interpret music, on a small scale. I've never in my life really had the opportunity to properly study music or piano, but I've done a lot, by God's grace, … Continue reading Good Friday Music and Musings →

Hunkering down

I feel a need to try to describe what this social distancing/flattening the curve period of time due to the coronavirus/Covid-19 issue is like for me as a sufferer of chronic long-term illness. I wonder if any others in this boat have experienced hunkering down at home in the same way.  I'd like to hear … Continue reading Hunkering down →

Rejoicing in Christ

One theme I write about often is understanding and embracing my progressive sanctification in Christ, being transparent about my sinfulness in my old flesh and about my frustrations with my slow progress in Christ. Today I turn the coin to the other side, and I want to write about my rejoicing in and praising God … Continue reading Rejoicing in Christ →

My Paradoxical Pursuit Continues

I continue to pursue personal holiness as the Bible says believers should. I continue to fail often. I suppose I am not as bad as I could be, would be, were I not focusing on my desire to obey Christ out of love for Him. But oh how slow is my progressive sanctification and oh … Continue reading My Paradoxical Pursuit Continues →

Morning Vent for the Suffering

I wish I could describe what mornings are like for me when My body/brain tries to wake up. The brain: high pitched noise, can't think or function much, dizzy, groggy, can't come out of the sleep. The body-stiff, slow moving, pain in various areas. It feels like trying to resurrect from the dead, but without … Continue reading Morning Vent for the Suffering →

Soul Safety

A friend recently died. Someone made a comment to me about the souls of believers after death being "disembodied" waiting for resurrection day. It sounded negative and so not comforting. I think that person may have misspoken (which is so easy to do) or maybe it was just the way it struck me in the … Continue reading Soul Safety →

Never burned

I am going through a hard thing. I've been through quite a few hard trials over the years, but this one is hitting me harder than any before. For my friends who don't know what is going on, you are welcome to contact me. For any readers who don't know me personally, the trial itself … Continue reading Never burned →